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Date: Sunday, November 29, 2009 Time: 11/29/2009 03:17:00 PM cold war
haix.. it is a bad thing or a good thing??? i am going to end my jc life soon... kinda miss it.a those no worries days... recently i get a bit emo,i also don't know why and i am having a cold war with my mum too.. just don't like to speak to anyone... or i am just too use to not talking to anyone and read my notes..haix...life is not fun and exciting as i though... i want to get out of this world... my parents don't seems to need me to take care of them esp when i have a brother to look after them.he can just do all the things that my parents assign to him.sometimes,he is just like a mama's boy.i hate it..i lose to my brother,almost everything... i don't bring pride to my family members.now i can feel why people cry when their parents told him that they are proud of him... i never get to hear those words,never in my 18 years of life before.will i get the chance to hear them? i dunno.. i feel like leaving the house and make something big by myself.i want my parents to recognize my talent and me,as a person.... i have been thinking all these days,what to do next?what kind of course that i want? i have too much fav courses that i like and i want to join them all... medicine,fashion design and courses that can make me closer to my idols.... why can't i choose all?i really want to study all of them so that i can choose any job that i am specialized in... CLS are all having exams and writing reports..they seems to be busy and i am so free...3rd dec i coming soon.i hope they can go out with that day.i think i will be starting work straight after my exams.so i am kinda not so free after my exams.hahax:) 내가 돈을 많이 만들고 싶어 한국에 내 친구 .. 내가 같이 가고 전달 day.kyuhyun를 찾는 중이야, 좀 기다려!:) |