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Date: Monday, October 26, 2009 Time: 10/26/2009 06:34:00 PM will i survive?
(will i survive?) 나는 아프다 ( i am ill) 나는 재기할 것이다 (i will recover) ^________^ today was the last time entering melvin's tution centre.a tuition centre that i was once in when i was in sec 3 n 4 with swizz they and now the econd time entering in JC 2 with myself alone..the kind of feeling is different i felt lonely in tuition but a learn a lot from the teacher,isn't that what tuition is suppose to be.hmm..i guess.hahax:) when we jc2 left the centre, melvin's eyes was full tears, i can see that he will miss us a lot and worried for the day that we sit for our 'A' level paper. i didn't cry straight after i left the centre,i only start crying when i reached home.i remebered melvin told us that this is a crossroad that we need to face alone.good or bad is your life. i seriously hate the word "alone". i don't want to be alone, i am not alone.there are friends out there too taking the exam but i know the alone means the doing of the papers during the exam. i have to admit.i hate to be alone.i always wanted someone to be there for me whenever i am tired or sad.i need encouragement.that is why sometimes i choose to have idol as the someone in my life. although friends are there for me,but they have their own troubles and worries too.i don't want to add on to their burden nor i want to be their burden.To me,i want my friends to be happy.i don't want them to feel sad for me.the feeling of being sad is bad,i don't want anyone to experience it with me. Thinking of an idol that is always beside you is better for me.he don't know you but you know him.you can talk to his picture and said whatever you want, he won't scold you or console you,he will stare at you that he always do.that is what encourages me,no matter what happened, you have to keep that determination in mind.keep your chin up.never fall down and even if you fall,get up straight away. Other than my studies, i still keep up with what is happening around me.my idols,although i won't go search for their news but whenever i heard from my friends about them,i laugh, i cry and i worry. Judy Zhou was doing not so good nowadays.fans was complaining to the company for not letting him release his own album.esp when yoga has come out with two and peter one.so fans think that the company is mistreating him.however the good news is that he got to host a variety show which is about animals.so at least he got his limelight in the other areas.i feel happy for him^^ ...super junior..kangin oppa.he got into two consecutive accident,one is attacking friends and the other is drink driving and knocking someone down. the first accident has caused ELF to worry about him and believe that he is innocent.indeed,he was innocent because he was not the one that started the fight.the second accident..it is his fault.he know that he shouldn't drive when he drink but he couldn't stop himself.he knock down a person and escaped from the scene but he then reported to the police station 5 hours after the accident.this time round, ELF are angry.some wanted kangin oppa to get out of Super junior but some still wanted him to stay in Suju but he must accept any punishment that was given to him. kangin oppa is always on the fans' side.he will do whatever the fans tell him to do.he don't want to harm SuJu too.i pray hard that SuJU remains 13.. 13eyond your imagination... . i have no time to show my support to any of my idols now.i wish them all the best and i wish myself all the best for my 'A' lvl.. Everybody 화이팅! |